Satan has known this about me all along. When I was at my weakest most vulnerable emotional state, he seemed to take the fork and just shove it right in. With that it led me to say and do things I never intended to do or beyond that mean. It was a defense mechanism to protect my heart myself, put that wall up to hide the unconfident heart I held.
I have to still watch it to this day. Others peoples emotions also highly effect me. To the point I have to watch who and what I let enter my front doors. Negativity and stress can take me for a tailspin....much like kids feed off their environment not sure I ever really grew out of that.
I want to believe God in that moment, but they are so powerful that I end up succuming to the thing I hate the most.
Not all emotion is bad. In fact we are born with emotion to share joy and empathy. Love and sorrow. Yet channeled without prayer and judgement it is one of the worlds greatest evil. Last week was a highly vulnerable week for me. Stress with my son and weeks of constant turmoil, I was candy in the devils eyes. He struck, I succumbed and I chose the typical lash and defend stance to guard my heart and my family.
I've learned a lot from that experience. Mostly beyond anything to pray first and foremost about everything. Not for a minute, or a few hours, but for a period of time until I no doubt had heard the truth from above. I've learned when we react to our emotions they lead us, blocking the way from God's path. We must stand still, find peace then find our footing to continue.
The next time you find yourself driven in anger, hurt or confusion I want you to stop and say this silent prayer. Over and over until the Lord speaks. Guard your environment, your family, your heart from any negativity or gossip that enters your walls.
Father, You are my Creator. You have made these emotions. These emotions have been wounded; they have been torn apart. Sinful, negative emotions have been cultivated into my life. I plead for You to release Your power into my life. Remove the sinful, negative emotions that resulted from emotional wounds. Heal my heart so that I can experience emotional health and wholeness (Genesis 1:27).